im doing this for me, so i dont need your opinion.
anyway. i dont know where i was when the last entries i wrote were all i know is that i had to be somewhere very far away from where i am now.
the whole idea that i bought my mother a christmas present made me laugh terribly, because at this point i almost wish she would croak.
i havent lived at "my" house for atleast a year now, a bit more. when i turned 18 they found it as an opportunity for me to be gone.
so i went to college, and tried as much as i could, and then none the less my mother decides to pull everything out from underneath me.
with few credits but nothing more i had to leave, and because i did, apparently i couldnt live in the place i once called home.
that immediately meant i had no where to live and it stayed that way for about 7 months, i was homeless as fuck, and i really had no
one to relate to me and realize my situation. during that time, mainly dead of winter id either sleep outside or in a car of a friend, watever it was
it sucked terribly. in the midst of all this i had lost my medical insurance and right before had found out i have arthiritis in both feet which will
sooner lead to both of my knees going out, which means my hips will be offline and my back will be fucked up as hell. yeaaaa. so ive been trying
since then to get insurance again, but i guess not, p.s. social services blows. the pain is getting worse as time proceeds but theres really nothing
i can do about it. i was in the homeless shelter for just a few nights in june, until i was in newbrugh with a few friends and met this guy. and he
kept in contact and somehow, someway fell in love with me. within a week i knew him, he picked me up to come live at his house and ive been
here ever since, its crazy dont get me wrong. the feeling of all of a sudden having a full irish/italian family from being rejected and put down your
whole life, is insane. i love this guy tho, he goes to school in the city, majoring in physics and tells me every day how he is going to marrry me.
wow, something lucky for me? doesnt seem right.